Entry 4: When Aryn got a surgery date!

I'm super excited to say that I have a surgery date!!  July 8th! 

It's unfortunate that it is my first contract day back, but I know that it will all work out just fine.  Ultimately my students and colleagues will have a healthier teacher working with them and that's a GREAT thing.  From listening to doctors and experiences of others, I think I will be "out" from work for 2 weeks.  My hysterectomy was similar incision-wise so two weeks sounds about right to me.  I'm going to work on walking every day over the next few weeks in hopes that my recovery will be the best it can be.

I had a dream that someone told me I was taking the easy way out.  Obviously it must be a doubt/worry that whispers at me, otherwise I don't think it would be a dream that left an impression on me.  When I woke up that morning I thought about how I felt about people who might think that...or WILL think that.  Then I thought about my issues with blood pressure, heart rhythm, and obviously, chronic ortho pain that I've written about before...and I pictured myself, age 72, miserable and thinking "But at least I didn't take the easy way out and pleased that one person who isn't actually in my life anymore..."  That doesn't mean I'm judging those who lose weight in a traditional sense (I think that  is WONDERFUL), but I also don't think my path after surgery will be "easy".  My hope is that my body responds by dropping lbs faster than otherwise, but I'm very nervous about the recovery, the very strict food plan following, and the overhaul my lifestyle will have regarding choices, portions, eating out, social situations, etc.   That being said...enough with the worry, already!  Today I'm celebrating my surgery date and feel hope for my future best self!